03/11/2016
I am looking at my none existent facebook profile and baaam, I used to have a blog, one I have not visited in a long time. I am browsing through it and I realise how far I have come.
Grace. Qaqamba Grace Xaki, now a 30 year old woman has come such a long way.
From my 2013 post about my year I have grown in ways that scare me.
Here are 5 things that you should know about me as a 30 year old woman:
1. I am enough.
I used to want to get approval from people to confirm if I was beautiful enough or if I was worth it or not. I can stand with my head high and say at the age I am at, I am enough, nothing is missing, I am who I am because all of me means everything to me and it is enough to make this strong black child of God that is blessed beyond measure and is living life as though she has done it before, diligently and proudly. As arrogant as it may sound, I am proud of the woman I am, inside and out. My achievements are awesome for me and I am happy with that. If it is enough for me about me, then it is enough because my God, Jehovah has my back.
2. Money is just a thing.
I used to believe that if I saved enough and had enough money I would be able to do as I please, however, I have realised that with or without money, if your mind is on something then you will do it, you can actually make it happen no matter how poor or rich you may be, you just need the drive. I would rather be at a happy place than the richest place in my life.
3. Happiness is everything.
At 30 years old I can say I have tasted happiness, everything I have ever wanted in life I have received. I have everything I want and need. I know that as I grow older, things will change, my parents will grow older and get sickly, I will also change physically and not be so independent, and the economy will change and times may be tough at times however I am sure that I have everything I need to survive any trial I may face. The man upstairs is the answer to everything and he will not allow it to happen if you cannot handle it. I accept and deal with it and that keeps me happy.
4. Gratitude is my middle name.
I count my blessings. I have so much more to be happy about and less to complain about. I have taught my mind to see good in everything. I try to be ungrateful sometimes but it is just too overwhelming for me to ignore, the blessings upon me make me super grateful because I am aware that I have what most people pray for. I am not rich, I am not be well travelled, the most educated nor am I the prettiest woman alive but I am happy and healthy and I have a loving and caring circle of friends and a family that means the world to me. I have no reason to complain but to just be grateful and share.
5. I impart my skills and knowledge
I have always been passionate about changing lives. I am in a position in my life where I can change lives. I speak to people with purpose, I plant ideas in people's heads that make them think yes I can do it. The thrill of seeing someone be a better person and touching another live makes me feel whole. I love teaching and the fact that I can teach and actually be listened to is everything to me. It pushes me to learn more, read more, travel more, learn from people who have made it before me so I can teach. I have so much more to do and teach and that is the reason I wake up so I can impart my knowledge and teach those that will teach in the near future as well.
All in all I can confidently say, the mind is the most powerful tool that one has. Your environment may try to affect you but if your mind is well equipped, the surrounding factors will not will. Equip your mind with the right tools and watch as you hear what the man upstairs is saying to you and watch as you bloom where you are planted and became this beautiful flower that everyone envies. Touch lives and impart knowledge as that will build the knowledge of others and later t
he the world.
That sums up the last 2 years of my life.
Have a ball and laugh at yourself, life is to be lived and enjoyed. We were not born to exist.
The love I have for people grows everyday, and that includes you too :)
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| Enjoy the view |
I am looking at my none existent facebook profile and baaam, I used to have a blog, one I have not visited in a long time. I am browsing through it and I realise how far I have come.
Grace. Qaqamba Grace Xaki, now a 30 year old woman has come such a long way.
From my 2013 post about my year I have grown in ways that scare me.
Here are 5 things that you should know about me as a 30 year old woman:
1. I am enough.
I used to want to get approval from people to confirm if I was beautiful enough or if I was worth it or not. I can stand with my head high and say at the age I am at, I am enough, nothing is missing, I am who I am because all of me means everything to me and it is enough to make this strong black child of God that is blessed beyond measure and is living life as though she has done it before, diligently and proudly. As arrogant as it may sound, I am proud of the woman I am, inside and out. My achievements are awesome for me and I am happy with that. If it is enough for me about me, then it is enough because my God, Jehovah has my back.
2. Money is just a thing.
I used to believe that if I saved enough and had enough money I would be able to do as I please, however, I have realised that with or without money, if your mind is on something then you will do it, you can actually make it happen no matter how poor or rich you may be, you just need the drive. I would rather be at a happy place than the richest place in my life.
3. Happiness is everything.
At 30 years old I can say I have tasted happiness, everything I have ever wanted in life I have received. I have everything I want and need. I know that as I grow older, things will change, my parents will grow older and get sickly, I will also change physically and not be so independent, and the economy will change and times may be tough at times however I am sure that I have everything I need to survive any trial I may face. The man upstairs is the answer to everything and he will not allow it to happen if you cannot handle it. I accept and deal with it and that keeps me happy.
4. Gratitude is my middle name.
I count my blessings. I have so much more to be happy about and less to complain about. I have taught my mind to see good in everything. I try to be ungrateful sometimes but it is just too overwhelming for me to ignore, the blessings upon me make me super grateful because I am aware that I have what most people pray for. I am not rich, I am not be well travelled, the most educated nor am I the prettiest woman alive but I am happy and healthy and I have a loving and caring circle of friends and a family that means the world to me. I have no reason to complain but to just be grateful and share.
5. I impart my skills and knowledge
I have always been passionate about changing lives. I am in a position in my life where I can change lives. I speak to people with purpose, I plant ideas in people's heads that make them think yes I can do it. The thrill of seeing someone be a better person and touching another live makes me feel whole. I love teaching and the fact that I can teach and actually be listened to is everything to me. It pushes me to learn more, read more, travel more, learn from people who have made it before me so I can teach. I have so much more to do and teach and that is the reason I wake up so I can impart my knowledge and teach those that will teach in the near future as well.
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| Enjoy the breeze |
All in all I can confidently say, the mind is the most powerful tool that one has. Your environment may try to affect you but if your mind is well equipped, the surrounding factors will not will. Equip your mind with the right tools and watch as you hear what the man upstairs is saying to you and watch as you bloom where you are planted and became this beautiful flower that everyone envies. Touch lives and impart knowledge as that will build the knowledge of others and later t
he the world.
That sums up the last 2 years of my life.
Have a ball and laugh at yourself, life is to be lived and enjoyed. We were not born to exist.
The love I have for people grows everyday, and that includes you too :)
