Tuesday, 10 December 2013

2013, what a year it was for Her

AN eventful year it was hey, don't you feel like it was one of the most shortest year with so many lessons to teach us?

Just a quick run down of the events that made this year a stand out year for me:

January:
Started the year with big hopes of better days throughout the year, welcomed a new member of the family, my sister-in-law :).
I gave up on a person I loved. We went our separate ways, one of the worst break ups I've ever had to deal with. I believe I really loved him. I still get sad when I think of it.
I met a lady that had prayed for someone to teach her the truth and we invited her to the meetings and the following day she was at the meetings and she was going strong.

February:
My aunt gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, the most beautiful thing I had seen for a very long time. He brought so much joy to the whole family.
Went back full force to the RBC

March:
My brother turned 29, I turned 27, we be feeling old right now.
Met a few nice guys as potential substitutes for the guy.
Pioneered till May through the memorial months.
I decided I was applying to go to do RBC full time, was gonna work hard and pay off some debts and go, was soo excited.

April:
Daddy turning 50, he be feeling so old,
My spiritual family always excellent, helped out a broken soul without them knowing
Had chilling sessions with the girls and they really helped me feel and make wise decisions.
My new bible that I had met in January couldn't study any more because she made wrong moves in her life.

May:
A friend was disfellowshipped, tjo I was shocked and surprised. I am very trusting and I was soo sad.
The guy came back as I was getting to know the new person I met, he wants me back. I had to follow my mind and not my heart and say NO!

June, July, August:
Preparations for the special Zulu convention, an awesome time we had leading to it and the actual event was a success, the most beautiful event I can remember. Met people that changed me. I realised I could do so much more with my time.
I realised the person I met was not as serious spiritually as I want the people I associate with should be.
Met soo many people I didn't know, was at a happy place.
I prayed for more bible studies and I was blessed with 5 more studies.

September:
My sister turning 25 and feeling oldish as well.
Attended so many builds by now I had lost count.
27 September 2013, 1st day of the Xhosa Convention, an awesome program we had. On our way back we were involved in a car accident and as a result my car was written off. I was shuttered, I need a car to do what I do (build, bible studies, transport people from and to the meetings),  the devel was really trying to destruct me.

Oct and November:
My younger sister (22) and mom (50) feeling like real old people.
My life was consumed by fighting with the person I was in an accident with, my insurance, his insurance and finding another car.
I finally found a car and it meant giving up a few things for some time till I settle the car.
I was back full force, conducting and doing what I love.

December:
I am over everything bad that happened this month and I am happy to kick start the new journey and goals that I will be working on in the coming year. I want to go to the beach and just relax over the holidays and just come back relaxed.

Lesson learn't: People come and Go, friends come and go but the people that love you will always be there. Family first over everyone else, esp if they believe in what you believe in. Jehovah will never allow anything that you can not handle happen to you. Just focus and look up to him for solutions and everything works out in the end.

2013 taught me that I can let go and not die, people will leave and you cannot do anything to stop them, begging them to stay won't make it right, just let them go. I've had people I know die, but not to this degree, people die and I learn't to let go and believe in the hope that I have that they will be resurrected.

Life is good if you trust Jehovah.


Monday, 29 April 2013

My Diary in my life of sin

Hi All,

It has been a while since I visited this side of town. I am here and I will post.

Today I want to talk about my diary.

I talk to my diary everyday, I confide in my diary, my diary knows me better than anyone else out there in the world.

It has been a very jolly, bumpy, strange, painful, joyous and emotional 27 years. My diary has been there to witness and listen to me through out the years.

I am a very strange person, I am complicated, I deal with emotions in the most awkward way.

I get angry, very angry but I cannot allow the next person to see how angry I am because I feel they will know which buttons to press. 

I look at life differently, I do not believe in the saying life is too short, I believe that life is a gift, but not a guarantee, hence we thank God for everyday. 

I hate a lot of things, but none of them would make me hate anyone in this world yet.

I believe that I am unique, just one of a kind, not a special species. 

I am scared of loosing the people I love in death, I believe I will die first :(.

My diary listens, it listens attentively.

I have learnt that from my diary, to listen, listen attentively.

I love unconditionally.

I get hurt big time, from small things mostly, but I have learnt to smile either way.

I am a ticking time bomb, I will let it all out one day in a song :)

I will sing the song to my diary

I miss my diary everyday when I am away from it.

I have only met one person in my whole life that reminds me of my diary, I will always treasure them :)

My diary, my life, my soul is yearning for you right now.

I will cry everyday if I ever lost you.

My diary is my bible :)

And that is the bible truth.